for mom

i was shaking and crying
when you called me on the phone
inside so quickly dying
feeling so tired and so alone

i thought you'd help me out
but of course you'll never do it
you think i need all this treatment
before i'll ever get through it

it wouldn't help me to get locked up
but it doesn't matter what i say
this court order you're bound to get
means i'll get locked up anyway

you accuse me of using you
for emotional support
i thought that's just what mommies do
rather than battling in court

never again will i ask
for you to hold me up
i just wish that you'd hold me
and stop holding me down

There are two related pages on my site. divorcing mom was written a few years later when i decided to do just that. life and dreams, the heart of the matter is about a strange dream i had as a child that at the time i didn't know involved her.

for mom

for mom

i was shaking and crying
when you called me on the phone
inside so quickly dying
feeling so tired and so alone

i thought you'd help me out
but of course you'll never do it
you think i need all this treatment
before i'll ever get through it

it wouldn't help me to get locked up
but it doesn't matter what i say
this court order you're bound to get
means i'll get locked up anyway

you accuse me of using you
for emotional support
i thought that's just what mommies do
rather than battling in court

never again will i ask
for you to hold me up
i just wish that you'd hold me
and stop holding me down

There are two related pages on my site. divorcing mom was written a few years later when i decided to do just that. life and dreams, the heart of the matter is about a strange dream i had as a child that at the time i didn't know involved her.